Plan

We make plans, we follow it through and we get where we have planned to.

I suppose the biggest question now is,

What happens when your plan doesn't go as planned.

Maybe you'd have a plan B? Or C? or even D?

But what if you didn't have a back up plan? You were sure your plan would work.

But it didn't.

Unforeseen variants that you didn't factor into your plan came out of no where.

And now your plan is permanently on hold, not because you've failed to plan well but because of a factor that is not within your control.

Passive. Learned helplessness.

You think there's nothing much that you can do.

Accept it.

Accept that your plan A has failed and you need a new plan.

You just need to figure something out, even if it's not what you've initially planned for.

Plan can change.

Plan does change.

Plan has changed.

闲人的心声

当等待的耐心逐渐被未知的恐惧吞噬，剩下的是一颗不安稳的心。它，即浮躁又敏感。

这，是一种似曾相识的感觉，和五年前那股茫然感一样。

当你已经尽了你所能做的本分， 而剩下的不在你掌控中的感觉。

除了等，还是只能等。原以为一切挺顺利的，结果还是撞墙了。

What more can I do?

终于我也成了无业游民一族。啊，想想就恐怖。

有试问过自己，对于离职的决定后悔过吗？ 

一点也不后悔，留下来绝对后悔。

嗯，那就吃得咸鱼抵得渴，自己的决定自己承担。

矛盾，大概可以变我的第二名字了吧。

工作忙碌时想着放假，无期限放假时却愁没工作。

唯一得意的是罢工后去了趟台湾和温哥华，过了一阵无忧的日子。

“有人包养的感觉真爽”，没志气的她想着。

“哪一天换我来包养你”，积极的她也想着。

总算和自己商谈好了，虽然花了一段时间逃避思考。

随遇而安，多么简单的四个字，却不是每个人都能办到。

且用这段时间做自己在忙碌时会想做的事，别再和自己找碴。

担心怀疑自己不够好时，就去想办法准备，空担心是没用的。

这，是一枚闲人的心声。

另外，每天看到Covid-19的病例像霉菌一样扩散，不用想也觉得很恐怖。唉。

Meow说，2020会是我们很忙的一年。

你错了，你看我闲的是。XD

重整旗鼓的，

欣