自己一个人的游走

走在冷清的Brighton Beach，除了一些情侣和零零散散的游客以外，布满云层的Brighton Beach对我而言就只是一片无情的沙滩。

没有阳光的沙滩，还是沙滩吗。是。
没有朋友陪吹来的冷风，还是冷风吗。是，更冷。
思绪一度飘回那个冬天的Toronto Island，晃着两个白痴的Ward Island。

That freezing cold winter at Toronto Island...

But it was warm with you and that warm drink you bought me. Cingu ya... 

sigh...

原来不是所有看起来美丽的地方都会自动美丽起来。
向往好一阵子的Brighton Beach，好像永远都温暖充满阳光的沙滩，原来也有冷飕飕阴沉沉的时候。

没有不开心，只是也没有特别开心。
哈哈哈。 就只是一路走走走。再走走走...

假象·真相

假笑·真笑

=]

欣

好久没有听到你的声音

16 June '15. Morning. Before exam. 

Status: Last minute cramming for remaining notes. 

*bzzzz* *WhatsApp group message* 

Kiat: Hey. Anyone available? 

Yan: Yes. Me. Here.

And so it ended up with him wanting to test his ethernet cable just to make sure the connection is good. So he called to test for sound quality. Even if we don't usually call each other. 

Kiat: Testing 123...

Yan: I can hear you. 

...

...

...

Kiat: 好久没有听到你的声音了。

*TT* 

Don't say things like that! Especially when I'm so far away. 

因为我也好久没有听到你们的声音了。

The familiar voice from a friend definitely calms my nerves.

=)

Feels good to have someone who recognizes your voice and tells you they haven't heard it for awhile. 

Wish you success with your HPLC testing!!! 

Oh. And the Toronto gang has finally graduated yesterday. That's it. It feels like my final remaining connection with U of T and Toronto will also dissolve with their convocation. So proud of them and so wish that I can be there. Instead, I'm sitting here writing this and not studying for exam. X/ 

And the laptop was singing "live and let die..."  NO!  I'll live but the memories shall live too. In my heart...

Tired,

Yan

Jump. Then breathe.

When there's so much going on in your mind and the only person you can talk to about it is missing in action... Jump, human jump. Jump till you're out of breath then lie down. Now, breathe.

Everything will be fine.

It's ok to face your own feelings.

It's okay... You'll be fine.

Yan

204 在哪里

叫天天不应，叫地地不理。这次真的就是这么一个状况。黄梓鑫！你在哪里！

不过就是想冲个凉，打开玻璃门的瞬间，“碰！” 门坏掉了。TT 我真的有这么粗鲁吗。以为很厉害可以自己修好，结果发现原来看起来很薄的玻璃门其实有点重。好不容易把卡住的门弄了出来，然后叻？？？ 检查完毕，有东西断了。I see. 然后叻？ 终于有点不好意思的叫Lilian过来帮忙试试看能不能装回去。结论是：不能。

就这样，小事一桩。可是却突然想念204，那个马桶盖坏掉了有人修、水溢出来了有人可以救命的屋子。哎。
TT