By my side

When you feel so shitty and you try to hide it from everyone then someone sees through your text messages and gives you a call. When you try to pretend like everything's fine but couldn't make yourself say anything. When you hear that familiar voice through the speaker and start laughing while your tears start flowing. When all you need is just someone who stands by your side and not questioning. When you thought you are grown up and strong enough now then you made some really stupid mistakes you can only laugh at yourself. When you know it's a small matter but you can't help yourself feeling so useless.

Then you feel comforted knowing someone out there will always be by your side no matter how imperfect you are. Then you toss and turn on the bed after clearing off your emotions and think rationally again. Then you wake up the next morning feeling refreshed and decide to handle whatever needs handling, rationally.

Because you know someone will be there for you no matter what and that keeps you strong.

Because we are so at ease when in front of each other.

No we are not the same, but we accept our differences.

Kumawo, cingu. heeeeeee... =目

Yan

Last day of 1st year

23/10/2015                    Friday                               Winter-like spring

The end. That's it.
Today marks the last day of class for my first year of DVM. There is nothing dramatic going on inside me, no OMG-it's-finals-I-am-screwed feeling or OMG-i'm-so-happy-it's-over feeling either. Rather, it feels more like ah,-I've-walked-so-far... Looking back, actually I don't even have to look back because those flashbacks of memories pop up into my mind at times without my permission anyway. It feels like yesterday when I would walk out of Wetmore hall and take a deep breath, feeling lucky I made it to Canada. That was my 1st year at U of T and it was 5 years ago.

千里之行始于足下是这样的意思吗。只有开始走才会在回头看时发现已经走了好远，而不是站在原地。是这样的感觉吗？
一种好想给自己一个拥抱然后小声地说...


做得好。

欣 

Officially 24, O.o!

生日快乐cingu,cingu cingu cingu~~~ -- May Tze!
Happy birthday Nyehhhhh!!! -- Xiao Ying
Happy birthday Yan -- Laine bi

happy birthday Kayan -- John Ong
H|a|p|p|y B|i|r|t|h|d|a|y -- Tony San
Happy birthday yo, not pass yet right -- Zi Xin

etc.

miehehehehehee... Because some people can make me jump up and down so easily. Thank you!

24岁的生日，有新朋友的蛋糕和新朋友+旧朋友+家人的祝福。Simple yet happy. Because I actually made it so far... and I am not alone. No, I didn't have to light a candle myself in a dark room. (Not that I intend to do that at all, even if I'm alone.) XD
Thankful to those who cared, no matter near or far...

=)

Much grateful,

Yan

中秋节快乐

9月28日                                  星期一                                       天气晴/月圆

中秋节快乐！

刚从朋友家回到自己的房间，静下来，有一种回头看，走了好远的欣慰。是啊，我并没有自己一个人过中秋。昨天三更半夜还出去和新朋友提灯笼，而且也不会很不好意思。变了吗。变了。不是变多话了，而是变得不再强迫自己必须要多话了。然后很潇洒的做自己。

不一样的中秋。=]

今天的月亮很圆，默默的希望那个有孩子脾气的妈妈不要再说一些伤人的话。你大概不知道，那些话有多伤人。

给每个需要关心的人。

月饼要有人一起吃才好吃。
今天的月饼很好吃。

和你们一起看看过的电影，然后让新的回忆重叠在旧的回忆上面。Mmm... 回忆它好神奇，它可以瞬间穿梭时空，立刻浮现在眼前...当某一段歌曲响起或某一段情节出现时。

新的交接点，和新的面孔。

=)

晚安，

欣

Once a barista, forever a barista

Haven't been seriously homesick since I came to Melbourne, thanks to the 4 years of seasoning at Toronto. Yet, there is this one place that always comes to mind when work piles up and when I wander around the city absent-mindedly.

Tonight, I allow myself to imagine how it would be like if there's a Thirdwave here, a place where I always look forward to, a place where I want to bring the closest people around me to. sigh...

Don't often say I miss you or I miss something, at least not outwardly, but when fei zai bka replied, "we all miss you too.".......   shit. TT
And chew yeng said, "once a barista, forever a barista". How I wish. But I still want to save those animals though...

It started off with latte art, then it was coffee, and now it's more than those, it's the memories, friends and passion.

Photo credit: chee cheng the ppc3. 

It hurts to admit that I don't have the confidence to brew a good cup of coffee anymore.

Because you can't have everything. =]

The human with too many passions,

Ka Yan

不是为了永远而珍惜，而是因为无法永远才更珍惜

周末和只是在facebook聊过天的朋友的朋友碰面后，有一种觉悟。为什么都说网络交友和真实生活不一样。大概懂了。 不是说谁不好谁很好，只能说不是所有好的东西放在一起就会很好。言下之意是我很好，那个朋友也很好，可是我当导游他当游客就一点都不好。

套chih seng说的一句话，咖啡加糖加奶就很搭，加胡椒可能就会有点奇怪。换言之就是，我讲完。哈哈哈哈哈…

不过借这次的经验换个教训：与其选择在可以掩饰自己的网络上交朋友还不如实实在在的和在眼前的人多聊几句。或者，安静的走也可以。因为，他们至少不会对你说“你和我想象中的不一样。”==" 请不要随便往我身上贴标签。谢谢。

总是傻傻的Jesslyn和我说，留学生的朋友在毕业后就会各自离开，然后好像就没有了下文，和家乡的朋友不一样。hmm… 是的。可是不就是不可能永远所以才更要珍惜吗。

就像那段在加拿大萌芽的T0401友情，短暂却真实美丽。
永远吗？
好像…
永远不会有永远。

欣

打回原形

结束和Papa, Mummy和Hou Hou的旅行以后，已经开学一个星期了。从每天晚上一起跑去吃甜品回到每天自己煮饭自己吃，仿佛灰姑娘被打回原形，回到现实。（当然，我不是灰姑娘，不穿玻璃鞋。）

说什么好呢。和家人在一起没有什么轰轰烈烈，可是却很自在。不是不会有摩擦而是摩擦完以后还是在一起。

最最最兴奋的瞬间吗？
就是看到相信是鲸鱼的灰黑色东西的那一刻。那时候吹着大风，淋着雨，却很兴奋。只差没有望远镜。这样看着彩虹随着雨慢慢的逼近，然后看见鲸鱼！那天，很幸运。难得的幸运。=D
checklist: half checked! 下次，希望可以更近距离的看见在大海遨游的鲸鱼。=)

看到吗？左下角那里！鲸鱼就在那里！=D -- Logans Beach Whale Watching Platform 17.7.2015

最最最衰的事情吗？
就是去Halls Gap路上我们的车和袋鼠的相遇。不对，不是相遇，是相撞。真的撞！=.="
这种经验，哈哈哈... 特别啊。 *苦笑*

撞坏的倒后镜和残留的袋鼠印记。抱歉，袋鼠同学。TT

最最最平凡却开心的回忆吗？
就是打包烧鸡在冷风嗖嗖的Brighton Beach吃，然后因为没有汤匙而研发“鸡骨头汤匙”的时候。最后失败跑去买了一杯冰淇淋要了两支汤匙。深藏不露的冰淇凌先生说，“as long as you are happy”。那天是晴天。

爸爸用不是很geng的英语终于找到可以沟通的angmoh。哈哈哈哈！--Brighton Beach '15.

最最最无奈的事吗？
就是听见谁谁谁托买什么跟什么，然后说这里的什么比较便宜，记得要买...
哇。无言。
最后更无奈的是，带你去买了，还跟我说没有让你买。真的，会气死。叫你来旅行，不是来办货。太多牵绊了这些凡人，潇洒的走，不行吗。

最最最不习惯的时候吗？
就是早上送走你们之后回到突然空荡荡的房间。那个只有我家房间大小的房间，到底是怎么住了我们四个人和你们一箱箱的行李，我们好厉害。=D


最最最想念的时候吗？
就是我们在一起的时候，因为不常这样一直在一起。总是你忙你的，我忙我的，他忙他的。

就这样，一起望向同一个未来。-- somewhere near Codrington Windmill Farm, Port Fairy '15.

最最最值得深思的话题吗？
就是Papa问我以后到底想做什么。
句号。
就让我慢慢思考吧，或者说，让它慢慢揭晓吧。

最最最感谢的事吗？
就是Papa大老远的还是帮我把她带来了！^^

nyek nyek nyek nyek...

以为已经忘记了怎么弹琴，可是原来手指的记忆比我的头脑还好。


是时候回到现在咯。=]

*more photos to come*

欣