Tuesday, September 22, 2015

Once a barista, forever a barista

Haven't been seriously homesick since I came to Melbourne, thanks to the 4 years of seasoning at Toronto. Yet, there is this one place that always comes to mind when work piles up and when I wander around the city absent-mindedly.

Tonight, I allow myself to imagine how it would be like if there's a Thirdwave here, a place where I always look forward to, a place where I want to bring the closest people around me to. sigh...

Don't often say I miss you or I miss something, at least not outwardly, but when fei zai bka replied, "we all miss you too.".......   shit. TT
And chew yeng said, "once a barista, forever a barista". How I wish. But I still want to save those animals though...

It started off with latte art, then it was coffee, and now it's more than those, it's the memories, friends and passion.

Photo credit: chee cheng the ppc3. 

It hurts to admit that I don't have the confidence to brew a good cup of coffee anymore.
Because you can't have everything. =]



The human with too many passions,

Ka Yan


Tuesday, September 1, 2015

不是为了永远而珍惜,而是因为无法永远才更珍惜

周末和只是在facebook聊过天的朋友的朋友碰面后,有一种觉悟。为什么都说网络交友和真实生活不一样。大概懂了。 不是说谁不好谁很好,只能说不是所有好的东西放在一起就会很好。言下之意是我很好,那个朋友也很好,可是我当导游他当游客就一点都不好。

套chih seng说的一句话,咖啡加糖加奶就很搭,加胡椒可能就会有点奇怪。换言之就是,我讲完。哈哈哈哈哈…

不过借这次的经验换个教训:与其选择在可以掩饰自己的网络上交朋友还不如实实在在的和在眼前的人多聊几句。或者,安静的走也可以。因为,他们至少不会对你说“你和我想象中的不一样。”==" 请不要随便往我身上贴标签。谢谢。

总是傻傻的Jesslyn和我说,留学生的朋友在毕业后就会各自离开,然后好像就没有了下文,和家乡的朋友不一样。hmm… 是的。可是不就是不可能永远所以才更要珍惜吗。

就像那段在加拿大萌芽的T0401友情,短暂却真实美丽。
永远吗?
好像…
永远不会有永远。





Sunday, August 2, 2015

打回原形

结束和Papa, Mummy和Hou Hou的旅行以后,已经开学一个星期了。从每天晚上一起跑去吃甜品回到每天自己煮饭自己吃,仿佛灰姑娘被打回原形,回到现实。(当然,我不是灰姑娘,不穿玻璃鞋。)

说什么好呢。和家人在一起没有什么轰轰烈烈,可是却很自在。不是不会有摩擦而是摩擦完以后还是在一起。

最最最兴奋的瞬间吗?
就是看到相信是鲸鱼的灰黑色东西的那一刻。那时候吹着大风,淋着雨,却很兴奋。只差没有望远镜。这样看着彩虹随着雨慢慢的逼近,然后看见鲸鱼!那天,很幸运。难得的幸运。=D
checklist: half checked! 下次,希望可以更近距离的看见在大海遨游的鲸鱼。=)

看到吗?左下角那里!鲸鱼就在那里!=D -- Logans Beach Whale Watching Platform 17.7.2015

最最最衰的事情吗?
就是去Halls Gap路上我们的车和袋鼠的相遇。不对,不是相遇,是相撞。真的撞!=.="
这种经验,哈哈哈... 特别啊。 *苦笑*

撞坏的倒后镜和残留的袋鼠印记。抱歉,袋鼠同学。TT

最最最平凡却开心的回忆吗?
就是打包烧鸡在冷风嗖嗖的Brighton Beach吃,然后因为没有汤匙而研发“鸡骨头汤匙”的时候。最后失败跑去买了一杯冰淇淋要了两支汤匙。深藏不露的冰淇凌先生说,“as long as you are happy”。那天是晴天。

爸爸用不是很geng的英语终于找到可以沟通的angmoh。哈哈哈哈!--Brighton Beach '15.

最最最无奈的事吗?
就是听见谁谁谁托买什么跟什么,然后说这里的什么比较便宜,记得要买...
哇。无言。
最后更无奈的是,带你去买了,还跟我说没有让你买。真的,会气死。叫你来旅行,不是来办货。太多牵绊了这些凡人,潇洒的走,不行吗。

最最最不习惯的时候吗?
就是早上送走你们之后回到突然空荡荡的房间。那个只有我家房间大小的房间,到底是怎么住了我们四个人和你们一箱箱的行李,我们好厉害。=D


最最最想念的时候吗?
就是我们在一起的时候,因为不常这样一直在一起。总是你忙你的,我忙我的,他忙他的。

就这样,一起望向同一个未来。-- somewhere near Codrington Windmill Farm, Port Fairy '15.

最最最值得深思的话题吗?
就是Papa问我以后到底想做什么。
句号。
就让我慢慢思考吧,或者说,让它慢慢揭晓吧。

最最最感谢的事吗?
就是Papa大老远的还是帮我把她带来了!^^

nyek nyek nyek nyek...
以为已经忘记了怎么弹琴,可是原来手指的记忆比我的头脑还好。


是时候回到现在咯。=]

*more photos to come*




Tuesday, June 23, 2015

自己一个人的游走

走在冷清的Brighton Beach,除了一些情侣和零零散散的游客以外,布满云层的Brighton Beach对我而言就只是一片无情的沙滩。

没有阳光的沙滩,还是沙滩吗。是。
没有朋友陪吹来的冷风,还是冷风吗。是,更冷。
思绪一度飘回那个冬天的Toronto Island,晃着两个白痴的Ward Island。

That freezing cold winter at Toronto Island...

But it was warm with you and that warm drink you bought me. Cingu ya... 


sigh...

原来不是所有看起来美丽的地方都会自动美丽起来。
向往好一阵子的Brighton Beach,好像永远都温暖充满阳光的沙滩,原来也有冷飕飕阴沉沉的时候。

没有不开心,只是也没有特别开心。
哈哈哈。 就只是一路走走走。再走走走...

假象·真相

假笑·真笑


=]



Tuesday, June 16, 2015

好久没有听到你的声音

16 June '15. Morning. Before exam. 
Status: Last minute cramming for remaining notes. 
*bzzzz* *WhatsApp group message* 
Kiat: Hey. Anyone available? 
Yan: Yes. Me. Here.

And so it ended up with him wanting to test his ethernet cable just to make sure the connection is good. So he called to test for sound quality. Even if we don't usually call each other. 
Kiat: Testing 123...
Yan: I can hear you. 
...
...
...
Kiat: 好久没有听到你的声音了。


*TT* 
Don't say things like that! Especially when I'm so far away. 
因为我也好久没有听到你们的声音了。
The familiar voice from a friend definitely calms my nerves.
=)
Feels good to have someone who recognizes your voice and tells you they haven't heard it for awhile. 

Wish you success with your HPLC testing!!! 

Oh. And the Toronto gang has finally graduated yesterday. That's it. It feels like my final remaining connection with U of T and Toronto will also dissolve with their convocation. So proud of them and so wish that I can be there. Instead, I'm sitting here writing this and not studying for exam. X/ 


And the laptop was singing "live and let die..."  NO!  I'll live but the memories shall live too. In my heart...


Tired,
Yan




Saturday, June 13, 2015

Jump. Then breathe.

When there's so much going on in your mind and the only person you can talk to about it is missing in action... Jump, human jump. Jump till you're out of breath then lie down. Now, breathe.

Everything will be fine.

It's ok to face your own feelings.


It's okay... You'll be fine.


Yan




Wednesday, June 3, 2015

204 在哪里

叫天天不应,叫地地不理。这次真的就是这么一个状况。黄梓鑫!你在哪里!

不过就是想冲个凉,打开玻璃门的瞬间,“碰!” 门坏掉了。TT 我真的有这么粗鲁吗。以为很厉害可以自己修好,结果发现原来看起来很薄的玻璃门其实有点重。好不容易把卡住的门弄了出来,然后叻??? 检查完毕,有东西断了。I see. 然后叻? 终于有点不好意思的叫Lilian过来帮忙试试看能不能装回去。结论是:不能。

就这样,小事一桩。可是却突然想念204,那个马桶盖坏掉了有人修、水溢出来了有人可以救命的屋子。哎。
TT